I don't bring my computer to bar class, which is definitely a good thing. In the afternoons, I only ocassionally need/use the computer, and find myself doing little other than keeping up with e-mail.
Also ... I don't have anything to say. "I studied for the bar exam today" gets a little boring. I'm not keeping up with much news; I'm not talking much with friends; I'm not thinking much about anything but the damned bar exam.
Well, other than the kids, but I fear that gets boring, too.
The girls' school had a picnic last night. J had a meltdown on the way out, and it sort of colored the whole otherwise-pleasant evening. She even made a spectical of herself. Friends were running over to her to talk, and then shyly stepping away backward as they saw her face all twisted and smeared with tears. I'm not really blaming myself for not giving the usual "ten minute warning," although I sort of am. She just crumbled so quickly, I know that she had to go. She wouldn't have crumbled like that if she were in a normal frame of mind. She (and her sister) had been RUNNING from 5:30 until I went to fetch her at 7:40. It was a giant water fight.
I am only a tiny bit behind in the Bar-Bri paced program, which I see as a major accomplishment, considering how much non-Zuska stuff has been going on in the house. I am 2 essays behind and I have 1/2 day of notes to condense that I didn't get to. Maybe I'll get to it tonight. Problem being that after getting up at 5:30 for a run; getting hte kids out the door; sitting through bar class; rushing home to get my stuff and go to the library; studying for 4 hours; ushering kids home; eating dinner; getting kids to bed .... I feel done for the day. Which is a little worrisome when I look ahead to the schedule I hope to maintain while working full time. Hopefully the crushing stress that I have been feeling a la the MA Board of Bar Examiners is a lot more intense than day-to-day will be at Future Firm.
Tonight my assignment includes my first essay to hand in for a grade. I'm a little nervous, b/c I haven't gone through the Massachusetts-specific stuff on ANY of the subjects and put it on notecards yet. So I'm sure I can write an essay according to MBE material, but not so much for my state. Oops. I also wish I knew what the topic was going to be. I guess I could peek, but that would be cheating.Labels: *J*, bar prep, parenting |
