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| Wednesday, February 07, 2007 |
| Sometimes, I worry about myself. |
I lack stamina, it seems.
Every day, I get to work at 8:15, and I work pretty hard. I'm diligent. I get lots done. I stay focused.
Until at least 2 or 2:30 p.m.
Then .... I sort of stop.
I try to keep going, but it's 1/2-assed. It's peppered with compulsive refreshing of cnn.com or boston.com or bloglines. I go for walks to the bathroom ... even if I don't have to go. Just because it's better than sitting at my desk and pulling up ANOTHER case. I start watching the clock, feeling like the 2+ hours I have left to work are going to last at least 40 years. I start thinking about the book I'm reading. Or the t.v. show I watched last night. I think of people I can e-mail or issues I am curious about which are begging to be researched on the internet.
I worry about this because next year I will likely need to be doing MORE work than I need to be doing now, on co-op. How will I possibly bill 4,000 hours a year if I can't work my way around the brick wall that is 2:30 p.m.?
My hope: When I am a REAL lawyer, I will not be given small snapshots of research assignments, but rather will know all the facts, will have followed the cases (or will start to follow the cases), and that I will be more engaged with the issues and the clients. In that way, I will be busier and I will not be sick of being at work as of 2:30 or 3 p.m.
My fear: I don't have it in me. |
posted by Zuska @ 2:49 PM   |
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